Changes in Life

I dreamed I would do this and do it big.  Well, I fell flat on my face and still paying the price.  That was 11 years ago.  I am still picking up the pieces.  2005 also was the year my twin had a awful stroke after I closed the knit shop and embroidery shop.    She lived but life was changed.  Now, as I am a decade plus older, facing other crazy factors, I must change the way I live. My twin passed in 2014 from another stroke and picking up the pieces from that lost is so hard.  I still have passion for knitting and knit often.   My quilting is in the wings, debating of giving my fabric a new home plus my collection of machines.   I than have two monster Embroidery Machines, should I part ways with them?   Lots of decisions.    These are things, they are owning me, me not enjoying them.   I would never think I would be in this mode, but I must make decision.  Our house is tiny and no extra cash to build to make bigger, so things must go.  Little by little.